What I want in 2022: Balance in growth. I want to start painting a picture using the water color techniques I’ve learned in 2021. I want to feel grounded–stability with an Einstein approach. Ability to separate work from interests; continue side hustling with midnite ramen to start, maybe UX research or journal prompts on the side. Steady growth of consistency–> don’t want to lose the momentum I built last year. Find a balance with my new normal again. Stay in touch and let go of others. Be intentional. Practice what I want for myself. Practice doing the hard stuff. Practice, practice, practice.
A dream life for me looks like: I share a communal space where I can be me, but with others present. A living room or perhaps a coffee table? A place to have drinks or just chat. A place for sobremesa. No commute per se. No having to “schedule” ahead of time; able to flexibly accommodate, travel when needed with a car (having learnt the mechanics a little bit more) while enjoying and getting accustomed to the way of the job. Have enough cushion for me to expand my growth in the role and try new approaches. Being aware of the transitions that happen from newbie to veteran. Not feeling guilty for taking days off. Living with someone–sharing space, sharing moments. Being in tune with nature more. Active–exploring the outside world. Balance of all four pillars of life; while maintaining the multiple layers of me. Open-ended chaos –meeting Diversophy friends in-person or maybe even puttypeeps. Be a coug at heart, but a dawg during the day.
Home 2022: 1. New space to call ‘mine.’ 2. Maintain contribution in virtual communities. 3. Expand network in-person. Body 2022: 1. Re-align my hips. 2. Be proud of what I look like without hiding it. 3. Enjoy movement with my body/embodiment. Mind 2022: 1. Financial well-being of self (investing, Rich Dad Poor Dad). 2. Side-hustle (being of service for a price). 3. Stepping into my educator-coach self again. Soul 2022: 1. Strengthen friendship with parts. 2. Continue with guide in exploring vulnerabilities and changes that come up. 3. Share my learnings of myself in some form–blog, journal, voice podcast?
What do I need to make this life happen?: Room for growth, emotional support, a cushion to fall back on when things don’t go the way I expect it; accountability, a team, supportive cheerleaders, subject matter experts, and encouragement.
In 2022, what’s a boundary I want to set: work-life balance.
Self-care practice that I will commit to in 2022: to be still with my thoughts and emotions. Don’t “shut it up” but sit still with it and acknowledge it.
My intention for 2022 is to practice who I want to be (so that I can show up as a better version of myself each time).
Feels very fitting that my first post of 2021 is of reflecting the year. Took some time to write out the thoughts that came about while listening to Yoga Girl’s podcast that @thefemmespark recommended. For those that know me, I love collecting questions that make me ponder; and this podcast was filled with them, so here’s what came up:
Overall Feeling: impatient with myself. Felt the need to always be busy. Scheduling things day by day; but in the end–or maybe starting in May, learned how to be patient with myself–embracing my own pace and life style. Looking back, I was in the right place at the right time. I had the time & curiosity to explore different mediums & fields. I tried to separate myself–using “but” a lot, instead of “and.” Guide always said “You are independent” and it finally clicked. I am. I was uncomfortable being comfortable in my own skin. Now the feeling is hygge–a time paused–to embrace the warmth, the contribution, the wealth of knowledge, the communities built, the relationships connected. The blending of water + paint in water coloring.
2021 was: clarity, learning, an informational interview of myself. It was insightful, inclusive of all my parts, lots of awe, learnings, re-learning, reframing, reshifting, looking at things from different perspectives–> re-spiral of learning and things falling to place.
2021 at a glance:
January – constructive
February- eager
March – tender
April – engaged
May – inspired
June – attentive
July – stimulated
August – energized
September – composed
October – vulnerable
November – welcoming
December – grounded
In 2021 I:
found clarity
immersed myself in the puttyverse
re-connected with Little Lisa
got vulnerable
found my fears & worries
explored the dark side: wisdom of trauma
made intentional connections
learned to love holding safe spaces through active listening & facilitation
expressed creatively
lived life
felt motivated
was consistent
held accountability
made decisions despite uncertainty
cooked creatively
took off facebook
stopped posting on instagram (only for work)
learned a lot
read a lot
hosted a virtual conference
interviewed and got the job
pivoted career
explored inner parts: Internal Family Systems (IFS), astrology, tarot–all connections as it relates to psychology and me
kept in touch with P2
worked part time as a social media designer/HR/website manager/translator
explored career design with a new lens; creatively found ways to market myself
made it through with storytelling and learned the power of it
journaled a lot; and made prompts for others
was made aware of emotions
found clarity and purpose; a sense of direction
found community
immersed myself in new findings
The Intention I set for 2021 was: to find a job that paid my worth, and in a team. My word was: demonstrate. My epic win was to find a job by Spring 2022. Realized the one profession I was not applying to had the potential to be what I was looking for. The word manifested itself in a way that I needed to look inwards –> I had to interview myself; demonstrate that I had the answers all along. To be confident and patient with myself–to know and decide for me. I received confidence, assurance, and a great example for myself and others that it can be done.
2021 taught me: to be patient. That practice takes time. It takes time to create change; but consistency is the first step, after awareness. It taught me boundaries–energy shifting–the power of voice messages, consistency–accountability; to lean on others; to not be afraid to ask for help. To make hard decisions. The value of inclusivity and identity.
My most wonderful moments were: hearing full circle moment of marketing & sales for midnite ramen; Apple Cup win, voice messages from a wise soul, catch-ups with Barb, 1:1 connections through zoom; sound board sessions, 1st FIGT virtual conference, creativity, Tokyo 2020 Olympics & Paralympics.
Closest connections: Selva, Thomas, Putty Tank folks, P2, Heather, and so many authors!
Thank you: door, Little Lisa, hip pain/hip tilt, Joel, Puttyverse, accountability, special friend, prezis, huddles/zoom, canva, Elmer, instagram, FIGT, Hybrid Professionals, Career Design Fellowship, Job Search Support Accountability Group, LinkedIn, Little Lisa, Heather, stories, feelies, words, videos–instagram, eucalyptus scent, down vests/hoodies, hummingbirds, and “the work.”
Hard lesson learned: generational trauma can’t be fixed; but I can fix myself. Not fix, but re-learn and be stronger. I’m not perfect, but imperfectly perfect and have a lot to offer–more than I give myself credit for. Hi-Fi is hear and so is Little Lisa.
I’m leaving behind: worry and anxiety. Letting of impatience and trying to be 120%. It’s okay to be not okay. I can be happy and sad at the same time. Multipotential emotions. Done with not feeling enough. Done with saying ‘but.’
In 2022 I’m taking with me: the courage to show-up; be present with my emotions. To share my experience, to teach when asked, to ask for help, to question, stay curious, learning, energy, and creativity.
Yoga Girl’s Processing 2021 episode
What are you mourning/grieving from 2021? Loss of expecting my mom to change.
What are you celebrating from 2021?: voice messages; the insights made with intention; celebrating connections without the physical presence. Containing space/energy and making it safe and intimate.
2021 for me was: my tango with water as a water color paint. My color green with splashes of red and yellow–that made hints of orange to create nuances of gradience into clarity.
[Home is family, container, and relationships; body is the physical, health, well-being; mind is your career, work, studies, growth, and learning; and soul is the inner work, self-care, healing, and/or therapy.]
Home (3) in 2021: High: creating a work station, boundary of myself. Low: blending boundaries, getting lost in the boundaries.
Mind (2) in 2021: High: curiosity of clarity for next chapter of my life, and pivoting into new job with pay. Low: losing touch with friends.
Body (4) in 2021: High: understanding the whys & healing my body. Low: the physical pain & tensions.
Soul (1) in 2021: High: connecting/awareness/communication with inner parts. Low: taking in overthinking and worry.
Inclusive Insights 