LLG: honestly didn’t learn much today except for the fact that I have supporters, people on my side near and far. I suppose that’s good to know and be thankful for.

I’m thankful for my friends, those who protested at the capitol, those 48 senators who voted against Kavanaugh, those who will vote in November, and thankful to end the day with a cougar victory. #gocougs #tumblr

LLG: Learned that FB does not automatically save posts (like google docs and word) for when the battery runs out on your computer…so here goes my second attempt.

“Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged to relocate us to the place we’re meant to be.” I don’t know who said this, but I sure hope that today’s rage, frustration, and despair takes us somewhere better.

Learned today that it’s hard to reach goals when your emotions are not in balance. Learned that if selfies force people to smile each day, I think it can serve as a great vehicle. Seven days without a smile makes one weak.

Thankful I figured out who sings the song for the anime Yowamushi Pedal: It’s Rhythmic Toy World, Ms. Ooja’s Hana, Lemon by Yonezu Kenshi, Greeeen’s songs, and Flumpool. (all jp songs).

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LLG: [long post] Today I re-read the book “Tuesdays with Morrie” in hopes of feeling something, but instead learned the power of my own growth and how I’ve lived through many of the lessons taught in this book. I first read this book back in middle school. It was the first book that made me cry. I remember my emotions exploding. I had a different experience this time around, possibly because the author was around my age in the book.

Today marks a year since Judy’s death. I heard Judy’s voice narrating the story. Morrie had ALS. With better understanding of what ALS is like, the story became more real. Also learned a new word: aphorism.

Here’s some quotes that stood out: “Tell me something close to your heart”, “The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it,” [so timely with what’s going on] “The effect of silence on human relations–Why are we embarrassed by silence? What comfort do we find in all the noise?” [I embrace silence these days, but too much silence makes me put music on] “Learn to detach…detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it.” [This one is exactly why I wanted to re-read this book. There’s a part of me that I want to release–emotionally. I need a good cry, not necessarily a sad cry, but a cry. I haven’t been able to do so for a while and I’m ready to release it.] “Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” [At the end of the day, I think my purpose is to create feelings of warmth –that feeling you get when you hug someone – through the interaction of words. I’ve signed up to volunteer to mentor high school students and be a listener. It gives me fuzzy feelings to be of service to others. No, it doesn’t pay, and I’m sure some of you may think my priorities are whack as I’m currently unemployed and getting a job should be priority numero uno, but my priority right now is getting my emotions balanced.]

Grateful I got to meet Judy and have her as part of my shenanigans, grateful for Morrie– I don’t know him, but I wish I did, thankful for books in my bookshelf, the ability to detach myself, and the ability to feel.

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LLG: Learned today that I was not alone to think the anime for Heidi has the best cheese scene. Learned that according to the Builder Profile, I have what it takes to be an entrepreneur. Also learned that I need my weekly dose of outburst of emotion. Movie watching is in the works.

Thankful for my blankets that keep me wrapped in warmth, the childhood anime that I grew up with, my love for food that started from a 2D anime, YouTube workout videos, and the daily goals that keep me going.

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LLG: Quotes from Tony Robbins that stuck with me: “Don’t should all over yourself,” “All management is the management of promises,” “Best way to get something done is to begin.” Learned that I’m most alert at 5:30am-10:00am. I’ll be trying a new morning routine that involves working out and less time with technology.

Gratitude goes to TED talks, action, emotion descriptors, self-awareness, and clearing the way.

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LLG: Learned that I need to get my butt in gear re: vision board. Continually learning Korean 5 minutes a day. Consistency is key. Also learned that I enjoy solving problems pertaining to food.

Gratitude goes to Mark, who trained me well as building captain when there was a drill at school, loose leaf exercise worksheets, rented library books, autopay, and hot drinks during cold weather.

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LLG: Learned it’s about time my pause and rest stages of my life is over. Learned that October is a good time to put things to action. Learned I’m still lost in darkness, but that’s probably due to overthinking. I need to figure out how to jump out of the plane again.

Gratitude goes to being trilingual, my continual interest in learning new languages, duolingo, drops, and talking Bout culture. #tumblr

LLG: learned today that gardening is not for me. Learned it’s about time I visited Ptown to check out the new buildings. As much as I love food, learned that I rarely dream about food.

Thankful for a coug win, the message behind #3, Spotify Playlists, uncashed check, and making someone else’s dream come true. #tumblr

LLG: learned that I need to set small goals for everyday. Learned that eucalyptus oil calms me down fairly quickly. And lastly, learned that I need to work harder to live life outside of my digital identity.

Grateful for Amazon prime, newsfeed full of support for survivors, library card, ability to read others’ stories, and the decision to put the #StopKavanaugh case into an FBI investigation. We’ll see what comes.

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LLG: I had plans to visit the library today to get work done. Instead, I spent most of the day watching, listening, and reading the Kavanaugh hearing. People say anything on the internet is permanent, but so are yearbooks and people’s horrific experiences they had to endure all these years. I learned that everyone has their own version of truth and whether we can truly know an absolute truth is a mystery. I learned that in order for a cultural shift to occur, we all need to come out of the fear and darkness. I didn’t end up getting to do anything I wanted to do today, but in return, I gained new insights for the movement of gender equality, #MeToo movement, and #WhyIDidntReport.

Grateful to have witnessed Dr. Ford’s hearing–her courage and strength, to hear of others’ stories near and far, the new episode of This is US, the pilot episode of the New √Āmsterdam, and the emotions I got to feel all throughout the day.

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