Category: LLG

LLG: heartburns suck as I haven’t figured out what it is that gives it. The feeling of internal defeat is horrible. Learned that listening to my body is a skill I have yet to master. If only I can decipher the different sounds my body makes. Learned also that apple cider vinegar tastes different depending on brand. I’m sure it’s the acidity level that’s different. Some are pungent more than others. Last but not least, controlling portions is key. Sure, I love to eat, and I can eat a lot, but control is necessary. Need to be able to calculate the time it takes for my food to set.

Gratitude goes to bodily sounds (even though I can’t decipher what it means), the sense of feeling, pain, the show gokuoni, and shows to catch up.

LLG: Learned that music is the best solution for me. Music and water, lake in this case. Something about watching the water move and listening to music that centers me. Learning that each of us use txting in different ways. If I have a conversation with someone, I don’t expect my mutual friends to know about the conversation. There’s a reason it wasn’t discussed in a group chat. Some people expect that though. Difference of opinion I suppose. I sincerely hope I don’t need to explain myself though. Learning I gotta get out pronto. I’m getting irked by the minute.

Gratitude goes to leaves changing colors, sunny day, mandala coloring, Spotify and sports2people belt.

LLG: Didn’t learn much except that there are tangerines/mikan that costs 1000 yen in Japan for one. Craziness. Passive aggressive behavior is so annoying, especially when dealing with culture that is indirect. It’s a deadly combination. Today was rather lazy. I need to step it up tomorrow.

Gratitude goes to Bobbi who listened, going through books to give away, library books to read, unread books sitting on my bookshelf, and friends connecting to set up plans.

LLG: Learned about Design Thinking and the methodology of problem solving. Learned that at the end of the day my strongest skill is to actively listen to people and their stories. By listening, I make them be heard, understood, and cared for. Another thing I learned is a pet peeve: people who say yea as a response to when you’re talking. Monotone yeas are the worst. I’d rather that they nod their head.

Gratitude goes to Human Side of Tech who hosted the workshop, to asking questions, building culture, exploring options, and understanding myself.

LLG: Learned today how much time I wasted on FB at any given time of day.  It’s amazing what you can do when you’re not on FB.  Also learned about taking care of my real self more so than my digital self.  For the longest time, I made an effort to take care of my digital identity, but now, I feel like it’s time to polish my real identity.  Sure someone can look me up online, but what if the internet is down? How will people remember me as? What do I stand for? What kind of impression am I making on them? Learned the importance of expression of feelings.  I don’t think someone can say that they’re happy without smiling.  In all honesty, I think happy is not the adjective I’d use to describe my status.  Looking at my phone, I haven’t taken a selfie in months.  I’ll be using selfies as a way to smile more.  I’ll fake it ‘til I can make it naturally.  

Gratitude goes to Project 137, my self-awareness, my decisions, my vision board, and the movie Heidi (1993). 

LLG: Learned it’s time for me to gradually disconnect myself from FB. I won’t deactivate it just yet, but I uninstalled it from my phone. People know how to reach me. I also learned I need to find my niche. I need to narrow my selling point and run with it. Once I have that squared away, I’ll soar away. I’ve learned to ask for what I want and be open to those who I care about.

Gratitude goes to my mom’s flan, the P2P meeting, my goals, the texts I receive, and hope.

LLG: learned that I dislike bitter caramel. Learned about a new spice called fenugreek. Makes my nose tingle like no other. Worse than any chile. Learned today that there are fights I choose not to get into, despite feeling strong about the topic. I think there’s always a time and place and certainly not worth arguing over with someone under the influence.

Gratitude goes to flan, cultural stories, ability to have dinner with someone with completely different views, learning about different cuisines, and chanterelle & matsutake mushrooms.

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LLG: honestly didn’t learn much today except for the fact that I have supporters, people on my side near and far. I suppose that’s good to know and be thankful for.

I’m thankful for my friends, those who protested at the capitol, those 48 senators who voted against Kavanaugh, those who will vote in November, and thankful to end the day with a cougar victory. #gocougs #tumblr

LLG: Learned that FB does not automatically save posts (like google docs and word) for when the battery runs out on your computer…so here goes my second attempt.

“Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged to relocate us to the place we’re meant to be.” I don’t know who said this, but I sure hope that today’s rage, frustration, and despair takes us somewhere better.

Learned today that it’s hard to reach goals when your emotions are not in balance. Learned that if selfies force people to smile each day, I think it can serve as a great vehicle. Seven days without a smile makes one weak.

Thankful I figured out who sings the song for the anime Yowamushi Pedal: It’s Rhythmic Toy World, Ms. Ooja’s Hana, Lemon by Yonezu Kenshi, Greeeen’s songs, and Flumpool. (all jp songs).

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LLG: [long post] Today I re-read the book “Tuesdays with Morrie” in hopes of feeling something, but instead learned the power of my own growth and how I’ve lived through many of the lessons taught in this book. I first read this book back in middle school. It was the first book that made me cry. I remember my emotions exploding. I had a different experience this time around, possibly because the author was around my age in the book.

Today marks a year since Judy’s death. I heard Judy’s voice narrating the story. Morrie had ALS. With better understanding of what ALS is like, the story became more real. Also learned a new word: aphorism.

Here’s some quotes that stood out: “Tell me something close to your heart”, “The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it,” [so timely with what’s going on] “The effect of silence on human relations–Why are we embarrassed by silence? What comfort do we find in all the noise?” [I embrace silence these days, but too much silence makes me put music on] “Learn to detach…detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it.” [This one is exactly why I wanted to re-read this book. There’s a part of me that I want to release–emotionally. I need a good cry, not necessarily a sad cry, but a cry. I haven’t been able to do so for a while and I’m ready to release it.] “Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” [At the end of the day, I think my purpose is to create feelings of warmth –that feeling you get when you hug someone – through the interaction of words. I’ve signed up to volunteer to mentor high school students and be a listener. It gives me fuzzy feelings to be of service to others. No, it doesn’t pay, and I’m sure some of you may think my priorities are whack as I’m currently unemployed and getting a job should be priority numero uno, but my priority right now is getting my emotions balanced.]

Grateful I got to meet Judy and have her as part of my shenanigans, grateful for Morrie– I don’t know him, but I wish I did, thankful for books in my bookshelf, the ability to detach myself, and the ability to feel.

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